Last week I discovered something, that seemingly helped with the overwhelming feelings of depression I've been having lately. I found that by making myself busier, I had less time to sit around and be in my head too much. It was as simple as picking up some overtime hours at work a few evenings in a row!
Granted working overtime is not always the greatest thing to do, but it is nice when that paycheck comes around. I also realize that picking up extra hours at one's primary job might not be doable for everyone out there. That's besides the point I'm trying to make. The point is, find your thing!
That's not to say that "my thing" is simply picking up overtime at work. Far from it in fact. Most of the time I loathe the idea of having to stay later than my 8 hour shift. Truth is right now I'm in need of the extra money so it's either pick up some overtime or get a part time job. For now, overtime is winning.
For a while I thought joining a local social group and making new friends would be the answer. I went to the once weekly meetups for a little over two months. All I ended up feeling, was lonely. It seemed the more people I surrounded myself with, the lonelier I felt. I do have a few friends I've made from the group but on a whole, it wasn't what I needed.
But last week, being busier than I have in a while, I can honestly look back and see that last week, I was happy. Now I'm in the current week and haven't had any extra evenings to pick up overtime, and I've felt my mood dip low yet again. This leads me to the conclusion that I need to find "my thing" to help me occupy my time. This will undoubtedly lead to some much needed soul searching on my part but I think I'm up for the challenge.
I throw this question out to you: what do you do to soul search?
