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I'm a horrible blogger. Actually I wouldn't even consider calling myself a "blogger". I keep a livejournal account and update it semi-regularly and that's about the extent of me keeping up with a blog. I also have a twitter account and actually update that even more than my lj. It's so easy to say something quick in 140 characters or less...or more if I use ubersocial which allows me to post with more characters. *geek squee*

I'm currently renewing my love for Dexter. The past few days I've begun a rewatch and was amazed at how many references from the current season went back to the start. Wonder if it will play out and light up a really big light bulb above my head. I did not see the twist that came a few episodes back and that's what I love about this show. I stay away from spoilers, for any show, because I like to see surprise twists on shows/movies I watch and be amazed at great writing. It's kind of sickening how I root for Dexter to get the bad guys, and kill them, all the while evading the cops himself. But he's just so fun!

I've also recently gotten into Merlin lately like crazy. Watched it on a whim, finally to many of my friends' encouraging, and was immediately hooked. Took me a while but I eventually found the man of my dreams in Bradley James and before you judge me I dare you to give him 5 minutes on screen and not be impressed. That and the behind-the-scenes footage I've found online has proven the geek within Mr. James and I do have such a weakness for geek boys!

And now I have to finish this long overdue update for the newest episode of Dexter.

A blessing in disguise?

Didn't want to face work today, Monday. I am now sitting here at home while my car is in the shop. Apparently I need some new front ring assembly b/c my ABS light was malfunctioning not to mention the tires I have been driving around on all year, and last, are pretty much a death trap. So I'm biting the bullet and getting 4 new tires and a new ring assembly thingie. While I wait for this to be done I'm enjoying some coffee at home and applying to various types of jobs out there, all of which do not consist of me being in an office. I think I'm burnt out on the office environment. As Sam Winchester said in an episode of Supernatural, I was meant to do more with my life than sit in a cubicle. So to the millions *insert laughter here* of people reading my blog, what type of job do you have and if it's not in an office of some sort, or even if you're in an office sometimes but not always, what do you do and where can I apply? I have no family-hey I'm 30 flirty and thriving(ish), so no restrictions on any certain shifts or even days off. I've had no weekends free and I've had weekends free; it's a 50/50 acceptance with me. I'll take what I can get with time off. Positions I'm currently applying to: Flight Attendant Cruiseline Staff Enterprise Work From Home (yeah customer service but WORK FROM HOME!) Best Buy Borders Local Library Places I'm considering applying to: Hobby Lobby Michaels Walmart (overnight stock b/c I couldn't handle registers there) I obviously need more ideas. I plan to not stay long at my current job but can't just quit and even if I was tempted before, my car is now ruling the nest and all my money is going into her. This is why I call her Callisto b/c she truly can be a bitch but yet I still love her. I also need to find a direction for this blog. I need to have all these posts tie in together and be more interesting so maybe someone aside from me will actually read it. OMG and it could lead to comments!

Let's talk Borgias

I have to admit that after merely 2 hours of The Borgias, I am hooked! I was extremely happy to hear and then read up a bit on this new series that Showtime is doing because I was hopelessly addicted to The Tudors and have since pretty much devoured any and every book I can get my hands on that have to do with Anne Boleyn and her daughter Queen Elizabeth I. Yes, I'm even a fan of Elizabeth and it's sequel and often will do a Tudors marathon followed up by BOTH movies! Did I mention I am obsessed? Actually, there was another reason I immediately got pulled into The Borgias before it even began and his name is David Oakes. (but be careful and please pay close attention to the pictures when googling this name b/c there is also a guitar player out there that I almost linked you too...just saying.) Anyway, THIS David was previously on the Starz mini-series The Pillars of the Earth playing a rather nasty little spoiled bastard who I immediately fell in love with. I can't imagine, had I really been born back in these times (which okay I'm disturbed and quite often do wish, and believe, I was born in the wrong century), that I would want anything to do with this type of character. I would be hiding as well as possibly in dark corners just to survive and not become a pawn but then again I probably would have been a nobody peasant...wait, what was I saying? Oh yes, back to David Oakes. I became fond of him on Pillars but then sad when this was only a mini-series and felt like it was over before it began. So of course I googled him (it sounds so dirty and let's just pretend we didn't imagine anything dirty just now...) and found out about The Borgias. And alas, here we are, with the two hour premiere under our belts and from what I'm seeing, it's getting great reviews right out of the gates! Of course, I'll watch a show regardless of the ratings and if the fates decide to cancel whatever I'm watching, I'll then buy it on dvd and rewatch it...constantly. But with The Borgias just starting and, and rather strong, I'm hopeful for great things to come. The rest of the cast is amazing and consists of Jeremy Irons, Francois Arnaud, Holliday Granger, and Lotte Verbeek to round out the main cast, in at least the first two eps. It's okay if you aren't familiar with their names yet...but you will be! I'm now going to follow my Tudor readings and dive into the world of the Borgias and find out more about this apparent notorious original crime family...not only is the history buff in me curious but also the catholic that is buried deep down inside.

Not so much a success

Last Friday was a trying day at the new job. The two bosses were out and the girl I was left in the office with was on an apparent power trip and proceeded to take it out on me as soon as the last boss left; the other was off that day. It was so much that I had envisioned myself going to lunch, with all my belongings, and not coming back. No where in my title does it say "assistant" and she was treating me worse than I've ever been treated when I did have "assistant" in my titles in the past. Then they do these working lunches so not only do I have to be there for 40 hours a week, I have to wait to be told when I can eat lunch and I can't even get away for 30 minutes to an hour during the day to have to myself without these people. I'm seriously contemplating if I want to go in on Monday or not. I firmly believe in not continuing with a job if your gut is telling you to quit. It doesn't make one a quitter; it makes you listen, truly listen to your soul and do what is right for you. I know not everyone would agree with my reasoning, but it's mine and I'll stick to it. So now I'm once again at a crossroads in my work-portion of life. I completely hate giving up 40 hours of my time every week to do someone else's bidding, who most likely treats me like I'm less than human, and thus making me feel bad about myself and not truly being happy with life. I was completely bitter about this on a whole Friday and was even doing some job searching while at work; I was fed up and no longer cared. If I'm forced to work in an office setting, I'd much prefer for it to be working away on a computer where I can have no use of a phone during my day and I can just do my work and leave. Not the greatest, but I despise being on the phones at work and yet keep getting put into these positions I'm not comfortable with. It's not a matter of being outside my comfort zone, it's the being forced to work a job that isn't what I want to do...why do some people get to have their dream jobs and others are forced to just settle? I'm done settling. I was talking to my sisters today, talking about finding a new job and even possibly moving away from where I've lived for 30 years of my life. It's time for a change; new surroundings; new job market; new me! I'm not entirely sure how serious they thought I was being but I was taking mental notes as we spoke. I'm seriously fed up with life at this stage and something drastic needs to change. I really wonder if I could clear out all the posessions in my life I don't NEED and make a go of it just moving from one city to the next working odds and ends jobs. Would I ever get a moment's peace without worry of money? Would I have a place to hang my hat, so to speak, and ever truly feel at home? ...or should I just go find a job I can do okay or maybe even well, that I somewhat like, and continue to live my life that is just, meh?

Success!

First full week of the new job done. I feel good about it. Did my first payroll with minimal errors and if any come back with errors going forward from this batch, it will be a learning experience...I am only human after all. If we don't make errors and learn from our mistakes, we can't grow from the experience.

Have also gotten back into yoga; did a total of 3 days this week! Ha, I know not much, but going from being a lazy bum to finally getting off said bum and putting some positive movement back into my life, I'm feeling pretty good. I plan to eventually get up to more days per week but am starting slow. Don't want to go too crazy and risk injury, which could happen with over stretching.

It has me thinking though, about yoga on a whole. I'm always reaching about yoga enthusiasts who have gone on retreats to learn more and really live a full live of a yogini. I would love to do that. I think I need to do some research and check into this. Could be a fun adventure, if nothing else. I know there is a workshop retreat in Texas that a few ladies I know who are yogini's (I think I'm spelling that wrong) had attended and resulted in them becoming certified to teach. And actually, I would love to learn the ins and outs to where I could teach...may be a new goal on the horizon.

Only time will tell. But until then, I'm sitting here in my apartment, in the Spring, watching the snow fall like it's actually still Winter. I don't think the seasons can officially be labeled anymore. But a Spring Thundersnow (oh yes, there was thunder earlier as well) can't keep me inside and at home. Heading off to the parent's later to hang with my family while eating white chicken chili and drinking wine. I guess we're throwing a late Winter party!

Conquering "what if's" and other new beginnings

New day. New blog. New job to be starting in a week. New snowfall, though if everyone had listened to me when I was going on and on about the Farmer's Almanac and how we should have expected another snowfall, well then they wouldn't have been so surprised when they woke up...BUT, no one likes an "I told you so" so, this is me moving on from rubbing that point in, too much.

I'm sitting here unemployed, for a week, until I start my new job. Just moving on from one office gig into another...not like I'm moving on to conquer the world or any of my dreams. *sigh*

Last week I was able to finally catch up with an old friend via gmail chat! I really enjoy our chats because no matter how crazy I might think some of my latest ideas are, she's usually right there with me, in some manner of speaking, feeling the same way and yet she's actually doing something about it where as I'm over here planning and scheming and thinking it will never happen for me. For instance, we both LOVE to travel though as of yet in my almost 31 years on this planet, I have yet to travel farther than a few hour's drive or plane ride anywhere. She just got back from living abroad in Chile, surviving their earthquake last year and coming back to the states to not conform into the corporate world again.

There are times when I would really love to leave the corporate world behind and travel the world. I've even read some blogs like this and this and even this and all lead to similar suggestions to stop spending money on things you need, sell everything you own while keeping enough to live on and only survive on the bare minimum going forward so you can have money to go forth and conquer, so to speak. They even go so far as to suggest ways to earn money for when your savings runs out.

But, I'm often left with questions like, "I'm a girl and there are certain times of the month I might need to curl up in a ball, with some chocolate and a sappy movie, and cry my eyes out until the cramps go away. If I were in another country, would I have the same sort of, *ahem* products I find in the US to assist during this time?" There are just some questions I continue to have and reading blog after blog with suggestions, some just do not come up...and I freak and continue to go on living my normal happy existence where it is safe and warm (except for when it's snowing).

So that is where this blog will come in handy, to maybe not anyone else, but me. I plan to scour the lands (of blogs) to find answers for this and other unique questions, that again maybe only I have, before I were to ever venture out on a said adventure. But by all means, if you have a particular question you continue to have and have yet to find an answer, put it out there for the world to know...and together we will seek the truth because like the X-Files said "The Truth Is Out There"!

For now, I will sit in the comforts of my apartment (newly renewed lease-what, party!!), continuing to watch my stories (the list of tv shows I frequent would make some cry and I just bought (no I did not NEED these but damnit I WANTED them-I need help) season 1 and 2 of Alias because we all know Bradley Cooper is awesome now, but has always been awesome back to his Will Tippin days) and read about adventures of those braver than I are willing to make...and hopefully I can pick up tricks of the trade so that when the day finally comes (it may require a giant push and swift kick to my ass, literally) I can truly say I was fully prepared - to experience an adventure no one could entirely prepare me for.

I should fully inform you that this blog will not only be about research into becoming a solo female traveler but will also feature reviews on the various tv shows and movies I watch (I love you Bradley but I also cheat on you with other actors and actresses, oooh-la-la!) and books (yes I read too!) as well as any other adventures I may find myself on around my city. Because until I can muster up the courage, and money (as well as learn to stop buying silly things like dvds) I can plan out little day and/or weekend trips around my city because I am well aware there are even sights here I have unseen.

Some blog

Wow I promised all kinds of posts, as I read my first post on this blog...to then be followed by absolutely nothing. I have this addiction to creating blogs and building profiles and making them all pretty and then not remembering all the sites to go back and frequent. I pretty much blame the blackhole that is facebook and their games...right now most are putting up St. Patrick's Day goodies and my irish ass is stocking on all that crap!

But I digress away from my point in saying I pretty much suck at sticking with things once I start them. Soooo many good ideas always floating around my head constantly but then when I go to act on them they just literally putter out.

Well this is me trying to no longer be a putter...I have no idea if that's a golf analogy, I do not nor will I ever watch a man/woman try to hit a little ball into a hole that I for one can never get to go in when I play miniature golf. Stupid little ball JUST GO IN YOUR HOME! Yes, I may have been channeling Happy Gilmore a bit there.

Oh right, I'm at work...gotta go, like do some work. Back soon and if not well then I'll be doing another post talking about how I said I'd be back and didn't follow through. Story of my damn life. *shakes head*