Life events lately have awakened something within me. I have decided to finally suck up my low self confidence and stop dreaming about what I've always wanted to do, and go after it.
The dream - acting.
Now don't laugh. I'm not prepared to run off to L.A. and end up working as a waitress while I wait for my big break to come. That is not me, well maybe the up and moving across the country bit could be me b/c I have been known to, at least, hop across Missouri a few times when my mood struck.
I don't expect to ever get famous or make much money acting. I don't have that look that would make someone pick me over someone else. There goes my self confidence slipping... But I want to give it a go. I'd love to find some local work acting in shorts, or a web series and just be content with the quality of work I'm putting out there.
I even have a friend, well sort of a friend, more of an acquaintance but that's such a lame term for someone you've known for a while really. Friend is so much more, friendly. But anyway, this friend is a local film maker and we have collaborated on an idea for a web series based off a NaNoWriMo subscription I wrote a few years ago. We are in the process of turning the story into something more and have even come up with an overall theme for not only 1 season, but for a 2nd.
I'm also planning on spending some time on the set of some films he's going to be shooting around the area in the upcoming months so I can get a true feel of what being an actor fully consists of. I am quite green in all this but I'm ready to jump in with both feet and start at the apprentice level and work my way up. Everyone has to start somewhere right?!
I guess you could say I'm a writer and aspiring actress b/c I've been writing for years but never shared it with anyone. Anyone can be whatever they want, it's turning it into something more that takes courage. I even have a second project that I've started writing on that I would like to see become a short, as well.
So there it is, my big secret out there for the world to know. Some people know I've had this dream, and haven't cared. Some people may think I'm crazy, and say I'll never achieve anything. But like I said before, I am not setting out on this path to reach a certain goal; I'm not expecting to become known or famous or rich. I have no plans to quit my boring ass day job and starve like an artist. Think of it more as a hobby that I will do to appease the muse that has inspired me and pushed me to the point of realizing it's time to "act" on this dream.
I will put my heart into the stories I write. I will hone my craft and dedicate myself to learning the craft and giving it my all. So at the end of the day, whichever day, I can know I was true to myself and did my best.
